Everyboy's Changing -Keane

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
And fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Oh everybody’s changing and I don’t feel the same

hmm... im handing over my com to my cousin for keeping so this will be my lastest last post... heez... anyhow, Church today was... inspirational... Robyn's Blog is... inspirational... I am so... inspired... ok i guess u noe where this is heading huh? lol... To my dear friends who have spent any amount of time with me... Ben, Ying, Amy, Virn, WanYi, Tim, Kelly, Fio, ShunJing, Simun, Aaron, Andrew, Char, Colin(Yes even u) Thank you for being there to listen, for showing trust and confidence in me that i surely did not deserve... Though i hv tried to be there for you at your darkest times i noe that many a time when it really mattered I shunned you... I showed such anger and judgement that it alienated you and made you fear talking to me.. most recently Colin... and of the above, only those who know me the most recently havn't seen this Ugly side of me...

1st on my Special Mentions list...
Ben Moet, Tree H***er. Waddup kid? haha... Have faith in yourself. i know i've judged you in the past... many a time it was out of irritation and sometimes even jealousy... jealousy that you could be so care-free and yet survive in this life... heez... but yeah... i've alwayz treasured you as a friend, some one who i can both Crap with and talk with... and you have the greatest potential to do great things... I see it in you... Live it up man! Sometimes Maturity is the ability to do what is appropriate at the right times... keep that in mind friend... don't let your emotions overwhelm you....

Ying... Every time i feel depressed or i need advice... you are the 1st person i think of.. the one person i know who fully understands me... heez... we hardly have spent time getting to know each other, yet... we have this ability to understand the things that are said btwn us... trust and smiles come so easily when im with you.. thank you...

Amy... Claudelle... you've been thru the most with me.. the hardest time of my short and weird life... and you've seen me change oh so much.. and now that im stable and you are stable too... i suppose we have drifted quite a bit... that is just too bad really. I do hope that one day we will be able to sit down and talk about the stupidity of Men and the Glory of God.. for I am badly in need of Spiritual Growth right now... Save me Jie...

Kelly... the belly... heez... well as usual im annoying her online now... and yeah... recently I guess she has been easy to talk to.. though now especially i feel... that you are keeping a distance from me... do not know why.. but yeah... uv alwayz been enigmatic... and there are so few ppl i know who can cause me such..."confusion"... wonder how our friendship will turn out :\... Juz waiting for trust...

Colin... Trust is such a hard thing to come by and yet it is so easy to lose huh? like you said Good friends and Bad friends both bring experiances to our lives that are unique... but to me... there are no Bad Friends... just misunderstood friends... After much contemplation... I know that what you have chosen to do is neither wrong nor right.. i just hope that the Lord watches over you and guides you away from the pit falls that Satan would hide along your path... Love her with all your heart.. and let not it be overshadowed by doubt and lust.

Finally... Adeline... My dearest... There is so much i wanna say(Most of it mushy stuff that I will spare you guyz from reading)... but in many wayz the relationship i have with you is so special... we really got close in a matter of days... from when i 1st danced with you... got to know you... it was magic. Real magic... your innocence and character reminded me of a Person i had thought was lost long ago... someone who was rightous in his own little way... caring and incredibly hurt by the injustices of the world... you reminded me of the person i was... the person who could be a friend to everyone.. who worked for and maintained the trust with friends... not by bitching about other ppl, but by sincerely caring... and as we got to know more and more of each other.. you showed me so much of what i KNEW.. but had FORGOTTEN... you have brought such meaning into my existance... I don't know what i would be today... without you...

kk... Kelly is rushin me to post this... so yeah... im not exactly done but... its enuf for now i suppose...

http://integrals.wolfram.com/ lame but useful next year and to F-math Students :P... Thx KW!

Hello. This is Chris here.

Today I blew away half my day with 8 other idiots in order to have the best, most destructive and violent game of Starcraft I've had in a long time.

Lots of stuff blew up. Many people died. Nuclear warfare was prevalent.

Ben rocked in this game, because for once he didn't make some ridiculously retarded mistake. But hey, Ben always rocks! Lets hear it for beN!

My only regret is that I didn't build ,more BATTLECRUISERS. Because they rock.

I am now currently writhing away pathetically in my home, forced to endure long hours of study on chinese. Sad. Right?

Well, I think i'll stop here now..heeheex. If you have, at this point in time, guessed that the author of this entry is not Antaeus Chua, but actually some other bored duffer, give yourself a pat on the back.

If not...oh well, don't get too down... because Chris is giving a treat of 1 free drink to whoever did not guess that he was not this entry's author.

Live life to the fullest! heeheex. No, wait...forget it. Death is but a state of mind.

Dreamz

Heyz... i just had this really weird dream, well not weird... but rather, vivid... of a certain girl I know... and i just have this compulsion to blog about it. It involved this crying girl... and me trying to comfort her, her telling me a story ive heard before... of hurt, of pain, of disappointment, of being let down by a guy. She slowly stopped crying after a while of... comforting... and walks around the corner... where i find her talking to the guy sho hurt her... like a good friend... u can imagine the disappointment that I felt...

It was the betrayal of my trust i put in her... the things that i told her.. .the wasted "care" that i gave her... what is the point of sharing stuff with her if she hides stuff from me... especially about what I had thought was something we both needed to share(aka bitch) about. I was wrong i guess... that is what i felt in the dream...and now i guess i do understand what happened tt nite a little more... bleah...

hmm... i dont know why but it really seems to apply to that person... maybe im just being paranoid... heez... right? not too nice now am I?

on a related note... my dreams are becoming more and more vivid... such that tactile sensations seem almost real. waking up with this searing pain in my arm where i was "slashed"... am i losing my mind? or just reading too much RA Salvator... haha... it is just so... weird... save my sanity... some one... anyone?

Dreamz

Heyz... i just had this really weird dream, well not weird... but rather, vivid... of a certain girl I know... and i just have this compulsion to blog about it. It involved this crying girl... and me trying to comfort her, her telling me a story ive heard before... of hurt, of pain, of disappointment, of being let down by a guy. She slowly stopped crying after a while of... comforting... and walks around the corner... where i find her talking to the guy sho hurt her... like a good friend... u can imagine the disappointment that I felt...

It was the betrayal of my trust i put in her... the things that i told her.. .the wasted "care" that i gave her... what is the point of sharing stuff with her if she hides stuff from me... especially about what I had thought was something we both needed to share(aka bitch) about. I was wrong i guess... that is what i felt in the dream...and now i guess i do understand what happened tt nite a little more... bleah...

hmm... i dont know why but it really seems to apply to that person... maybe im just being paranoid... heez... right? not too nice now am I?

on a related note... my dreams are becoming more and more vivid... such that tactile sensations seem almost real. waking up with this searing pain in my arm where i was "slashed"... am i losing my mind? or just reading too much RA Salvator... haha... it is just so... weird... save my sanity... some one... anyone?

I am leaving... on a quest... to find the holy grail of computing... and destroy the evil of Physics and Chinese... damn tt was lame

OK... ive been trying to balance a certain degree of social life with studying... and u can tell that i v failed miserably. So now i take my leave of the cyber world as well to hit the book(not literally.... yet) and hopefully survive this promos... ur emails will go unread, ur blogs unvisited... but nv fear... the great AnT is alwayz here... 1 way or another(ie my hp or home phone)... you will be able to reach me... *grin... take care all.... and all the best for the promos!(or A's)(or O's)(or sec 2 exams)(or wteva crap u hv to take)...

Misunderstood...

1st off... lets clear up every thing...

While we were still at the table LW called ying... and they had a short(albiet tense)
conversation... I don think they were planning to meet, its just tt Ying was arnd so LW wanted to accompany her...
Ying and I headed off to the Busstop.. and though i was surprised when she said that we'd be seeing LW, i guess i was ok with it... we talked on the way to the busstop abt stuff btwn them... she's not really "patched up" with him yet... and she is a smart gal...

so yeah, we did meet him there, and helped him find his sim-card(Which he dropped somewhere along the way). Then we waited for 171... together all the time.. at tt pt i think the girls saw LW with Ying.. though they must have missed me...

I know how it looked like... that Ying was making the same mistake over again... that your concern was wasted on her... but please... she was so hurt by what you girls said... you really are ppl that she cares about, that she treasures as friends... please understand that she has been touched by u guyz and ur trust means the world to her... give her a chance to clear this up... listen to her... with a heart


its 12mn... I have so much on my mind.. weighin me down...

Hmm... its 4am in the morn, i suddenly woke up and im now wide awake. strange... my eyes kinda snapped open, and i dun think i was dreaming anything, juz hv this sudden sadness in my heart... and i blog.. heez... Its really been while since ive sat down and really typed my feelings onto this blog. Partially because i got an sms from a friend that freaked me out... and tot... maybe lettin the cyber world noe about me is a little scary, u nv noe who is gonna read this or how they would take it.

To Germaine Ho: Chill out gal, im sry for daoing ur msgs and stuff, ur not the only 1 i dao... its juz come to a pt that i dun feel compelled to reply to many ppl who wanna talk to me... dun ask why.

Poor Ying... hey girls, gv ying a break... she din lie 2 u, really, i was with her til abt 11 and lw did join us at the busstop... plus we were helping him find his sim-card... im sorry if it seemed tt way, and yeah, lw did accompany us home on 171 and then 74 with ying while i stoned the rest of the way to KAP alone...

bleah... my mind isnt exactly running properly yet i think.. and my blogging is a lil' rusty, so i'll leave it at this. Oh, 1 more thing...

loveactually... is....