Just so you know

Power... Fear... Pain...

what makes a man? power? strength?

ever felt the need to be power incarnate? have absolute control and not fear any of the consequences? have every single thing you ever wanted and more? to be free of pain?

My entire soul has been in turmoil for 2 months... and yet i still have not resolved the pain.. the fear.. will i ever been able to rid myself of these demons?

I'm trying so hard to hold on to myself.. so hard to not be lost in this swirl of hatred. To lose myself...

there are moments of sanity and more of insanity. like sitting next to an mg with live rounds sitting in a box. haha... fucking insanity. but hey... i'll never do something stupid. no worries.

always trying to be a superhero... haha... what a joke.

well... if you have any words... any words i can cling on to for sanity's sake. please. Thank you...

its the choices that make us who we are.

Chasing cars - Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words,
are said too much
they're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

There... Mr Hunt closed down the 2A1 Site... i'll be returning to aueralis then:P link link!