Yesterday

Impromptu
Arrogence
Scorpion!


wow.. 27 Mar 2004, the day of Impromptu decisions... ok.. the day started off easy enough... Headed to school for CO hung around and made very off-tune noises with my flute... jeez... wt do u expect from a guy who hasnt touched the bamboo stick for 2 yrs... then here comes the interesting part... oh hey... ive got to get to NTU for the MENSA test... oh shit, i didnt bring my pencil case... oh nvm i'll juz borrow 1 from sm1 there... oh crap, im outa money... (needed $28 to sit for the test). i'll get it from the ATM... 2 hrs later... oh **** i forgot to jack the ATM... lolz... talk about screw ups... thankfully the girl who handled the payment and everything was nice enough to let me sit for the test 1st, then accompanied me to the "Closest" ATM... (it wasn't exactly close...).

ok... a question... how do u define being nice? tolerence? kindness?sweet words? a person who treats every1 the same? ppl used to call me a nice guy in the past... now i find it hard to see myself as such... i suppose, when u suffer u remember to treat ppl "nicely"... then when u are free of the suffering, u forget... and Arrogence sets in... That was theory 1...
Theory 2... U have suffered... bearable... but then at 1 point in time u go past the breaking pt... ur heart is broken.. ur faith shattered... u have given her all ur best and nothing comes out of it in the end, promises, hopes, dreams... all ground to nothing. Why care about others when all u get is hurt?
Theory 3... You have suffered... ur spirit broken... moulded to serve, bashed until u don't have the will to think for ur own-polite, quite, obidient. A gentleman if u like, then Freedom comes along and ur true self starts to show... ur ugly, suppressed self...
I hv been thinking about it for sometime... cant find an answer yet, if u like, give ur view :D thx... but its an answer that i believe i need to seek on my own.

Oh and im gonna get a Scorpion M55 tmr! yay... haha... its kinda simple and lacking in the functions of today's phone but with a budget of $200-300... not much i can do.. thank you again, Ying Ying for dumping me into the pool(phone and all) :D... now... to edit my Blog Template...