Aueralis

2009-12-06T11:54:00.001+08:00

2009-01-21T10:39:00.002+08:00

Is it me? is it you? nothing that, I can do... to make you change your mind...

so why do you... do...

I write here because I can not bring myself to admit to the pain that literally gives me chest pains. I write here because I have no other outlet. Part of me hopes that you stumble across these words someday and realize how much you can hurt me. I wonder what will your choice be?

Fuck it... I'm pretty sure what you will choose, but I'm just hoping that all this at least means enough for you to protect yourself from doing something you will regret.

And I come crawling back

2009-01-18T03:29:00.002+08:00

I have so many questions but I don't know how to say it.. Were you sincere? Will he hurt you? Are you doing this so that I will move on? Why? I guess it doesn't matter now does it.. So easily changed. like a flip of a coin. Fuck it... I just hope I will be as good a friend as you will ever know.. because I realise I will do anything to protect you

Closure

2007-10-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

i guess the state that this blog is in now is an accurate reflection of how my own life is right now. haha... as such, I would like to put the past behind and start afresh. No longer with Blogger will my thoughts be written. All I need to do now is to figure out what domain name I will be buying

This. is talent

2007-08-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

i cant remember if i posted this before on my blog that got taken down. but here it is again for the benefit of Benny who never got to see it:P

Nerf me bi***es

2007-08-03T19:23:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time,
there was a beautiful RPG,
it's name was World of Warcraft,
and there were lot's of things to see!

The game had nine different classes,
each with their specialty,
and you could choose completely,
which one you wanted to be!

There were Paladins, Shamans and Druids,
there were many things they could do!
It also had Mages and Hunters,
They kinda did pewpew!

And don't forget the priest,
the master of the heals!
And ofcourse the rogues and warriors,
they were masters of "FAST KEELS"!

And last, there was the warlock.
Wicked, awesome and cruel.
They were supposed to dps like mages.
And debuff you in a duel!

Well, this was what the book said,
which was included with the game.
But warlocks kinda sucked!
Yep, that sure was lame.

And so people were happy,
with the class they rolled.
All, except the warlock.
They didnt get what they were told!

And so they went to the forums,
and said: "i've got something to say!"
But all the classes replied:
" It's fine, just learn2play".

And so the warlocks played,
the first 60's were already here!
But the warlock was still a mushroom,
and they only got a nerf to fear.

And the warlock's went to the forums,
and said: " Why am i not a predator but prey? "
And all the classes replied:
" It's fine, just learn2play".

Some time had passed now,
maybe half a year.
But warlocks were still useless.
And again Blizzard nerfed fear.

" If they are keeping it like this,
and don't know if this is what I'll stay!"
But all the classes replied:
" It's fine, just learn2play! "

But then something awesome happened.
It sure was a beautiful thing!
On that very day,
Blizzard crowned the Warlock king!

They got DPS like mages,
even better, at some times!
And they could debuff people!
As good as this sentence rhymes!

Now people were feared of warlocks,
and not only the spell.
Cause if they met a warlock,
there we're going straight to hell!

And all the classes went to the forums,
and said: " This is not good, no!
" Where is my free honor? "
" My rank is now SO low! "

" We demand a nerf Blizzard!
This is not okay! "
But all the warlocks replied:
"It's fine, just learn2play ;)"

Loved it:) Poem by Magus of Alleria

You...

2007-06-30T00:54:00.000+08:00

...are never there

untie my soul

2007-06-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

so i guess it has come to this. I've stopped being angry, being emotionally incapacitated by the very thought of you. but the anger has been replaced by a dull ache that refuses to go away. i do still read your blog, but i cannot bring myself to say this to you personally. I wont lie. I'm not ok.

But I've moved on.

I still cry, I still hurt. I'm happy with the people I'm with. But when I'm alone... I feel just that. alone. cold. scared.

(removed)

inwardly, i'm struggling to stop this. but i'm losing... badly. I'm glad you are ok and having happy moments. I'm sorry you still have to think about us. no... its not plural anymore. think about... me.

Share? I have nothing to give. How can I presume to take?

I thought it might have been time. but i guess... im still not ready.

chris(deceased)

2007-06-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

fitting? haha... damn.. so I'm a self-centered addict of WoW. buddy... you have no idea.. hahaha... Im sorry, I have no explanation. just excuses... I don't want to be such a person either. but i've lost control. im careening off the edge of a water fall with no rudder attached.

2007-06-03T11:39:00.000+08:00

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

taken from Leave out all the rest - Linkin Park, Minutes to Midnight

4948 - and counting

2007-06-03T11:27:00.000+08:00

that is the number of files i need to sort through... 1/4 of which must be duplicates... sheesh.

Hmm... i need to come up with a new design for my blog, lest I stick with this plain ol' run of the mill one from blogger. BUT I need photoshop( sponsers anyone?)... grr.. argh. Any suggestions on a theme? :D I haven't given it much thought, but recently the only thing on my mind has bee WoW and suicide... rather boring design focuses. My ol' friendster account is due for an overhaul too, though the lack of photos(and general lack of life) has made it hard to motivate myself to get started on it.

I really enjoyed feeling numb for a few days. But that's not how i choose to live. So i stupidly went and put a knife into my heart. Read alot of her previous posts about promises and other ephemeral words and moments, in times long past. bah... bitterness... but the sweetness evades(+5) me.

why do I do this to myself? I'll never know... or rather... I'd never admit it.

Gonna hang out with Twiggy and WooOOo later, maybe catch Pirates, though... I never did watch the first two shows.

Ghost of you and me

2007-06-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Well... i finally tore myself away from WoW for a day. Its escapism I know, especially in the current state I'm in. But hey, all you need to do to understand why I'm going crazy in my brain is take a trip to her blog. rah.

Being out with my "Ghost from the past" showed me many things that I have refused to acknowledge for the longest time, it also helped siphon off the awkwardness I felt around others and reminded me of the reality of things around me.

I can't really afford to just distract myself from all the pain. He reminded me that I need to face this, just as I faced the trials I've had in my past.

Will I crash and burn? Or will I stand up again?

Just so you know

2007-05-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

Power... Fear... Pain...

2007-05-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

what makes a man? power? strength?

ever felt the need to be power incarnate? have absolute control and not fear any of the consequences? have every single thing you ever wanted and more? to be free of pain?

My entire soul has been in turmoil for 2 months... and yet i still have not resolved the pain.. the fear.. will i ever been able to rid myself of these demons?

I'm trying so hard to hold on to myself.. so hard to not be lost in this swirl of hatred. To lose myself...

there are moments of sanity and more of insanity. like sitting next to an mg with live rounds sitting in a box. haha... fucking insanity. but hey... i'll never do something stupid. no worries.

always trying to be a superhero... haha... what a joke.

well... if you have any words... any words i can cling on to for sanity's sake. please. Thank you...

its the choices that make us who we are.

2007-05-23T21:23:00.001+08:00

Chasing cars - Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words,
are said too much
they're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

There... Mr Hunt closed down the 2A1 Site... i'll be returning to aueralis then:P link link!

2006-01-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

go to

http://antaeuscai.2a1timecapsule.org.uk

2006-01-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

sesquipedalian \ses-kwuh-puh-DAYL-yuhn\, adjective:
1. Given to or characterized by the use of long words.
2. Long and ponderous; having many syllables.

why didnt i guess it would mean that

REBELLION@Indochine

2006-01-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

Advertising for a friend:
REBELLION@Indochine
27th Jan
Presale $18
The Door $20..

if you are interested sms me and i'll give u the guy's number

but no... im not gonna be there

2006-01-09T11:39:00.000+08:00

It was a rainy and gloomy Sunday was it not?

as i sat in the cab trip back home, i started thinking about how things have changed from Jagoh up til now. School, life, friends... and how now im standing at the edge of a black hole, not knowing what to expect on the other end... if there is even another end to begin with.

many changes have come upon me, much i have weathered in my 18 years, yet at the same time much i have not seen.

We have alot to be thankful for, but by no means should we stagnate and be content, no... i strive for more.I have met people and said my fair share of good byes, some i didnt even get to say good bye to before life swept them out of reach. yet they have not left my mind and prayers.faith i have found, faith i have lost, in different things. though my belief in the EXISTANCE the celestial holds true to my heart and mind.there is so much to do, but i have not the energy at this point, too much is there to do.

what will i be?who do i aim to be?will i be rich?do i really care?

these are just snippets of what slipped through my mind in the taxi ride. some are too personal to post, others just too inane to expound...

rewind

im, standing at my door, back to reality.(oops there goes gravity)

time to step over the Point of No Return and see where this black hole leads..

2006-01-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

I ain't enlisting so soon:) it was a mis-comm, 16th is a Medical Checkup only, im enlisting in Apr!!! yeah... thats it. i thought i blogged this before.. in the really long post.

2006-01-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

http://www.treehouseanimation.com/rotb/movies/sso.mov

hhahahahahaha.....

2005-12-31T14:25:00.000+08:00

hey ppl who play on zion or lan craft look out for me:) i'll be swapping nicks once in a while... tnaiac(cai-ant backwards), tna or just. well... whatever it is... i probably wun use AnT unless im playing with you guys... do MSN me if u are playin on zion and im online:)

2005-12-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

hey there all! :) faithful readers of aueralis, though you may be few, you are dear. i have been busy. and tired. and playing too much. work will start soon... i hope. tis a new year. tis a new beginning. i shall tell u more. in time. stay tuned.

logorrhea - verbal diahorhea

2005-12-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

pathologically excessive and often incoherent talkativeness or wordiness that is characteristic especially of the manic phase of manic-depressive disorders —log·or·rhe·ic or chiefly British log·or·rhoe·ic /-'rE-ik/ adjective

read this at Aueralis v2.0. it should be easier to read coz the font is larger and the space is larger too. oh and vote too... whats the resolution size that you use. if you dont know check the bottom of this post for how to find out.

its Christmas... :) havent had the time to find a proper recording program for doing the blogcast for Aueralis. Right now im sitting in Macs typing on note pad coz for some reason i cant connect to the internet. i think my network card is failing from the abuse that ive put it through. will leave for BRMC in about 20 min or so. but first... lets expel.

ok... the biggest thing is the news that came yesterday, it seems that i will be going into NS a little earlier than i expected. 16th Jan to be exact. i contemplated telling Adeline over the phone but... lets not disturb her holiday just yet. a little sad about it. but its alright. changes quite a few plans that i had though.

Aueralis v2.0 will hopefully be completed within the next 2 weeks. i won't be getting a job now that im going in so soon. funny how im bummed about not having to work :P was looking forward to getting my hands dirty earning my own money i guess. ahwell... my hands will get dirty anyway. intense training began last night. after i got back home. but the jetlag put a shackle on too much exercise. picked up from where i left off.. 2.1 km in 10 min. must jack it up a lil more today.

it still dosent really feel like Christmas. im not sure why. (apart from the wet wet days). Weird thing, almost all my Christmas presents are food stuff... no comp stuff:( haha... i dunno man, i sure wasnt expecting chocs and biscuits and stuff, maybe they just didnt know what to get for me... or they are trying to tell me that im skinny. hmm....

New Zealand was great, nice weather, nice people, nice lamb, cute lamb and delicious lamb. i do hope i remember what i wanted to say about NZ when i get down to recording the blogcast. wonder what i should name the cast. i'll keep it under 5 min.. talk a lil crap, good music in the background. haha...

other random comments
Firefox is damn slow... starting up and when i alt-tab to other programs... maybe its because of some of the plugins i have installed. Any one of you have this problem? it eats up a hell lot of memory after a while too, but i guess that is inherent in all browsers, not sure why though. must read up on that.
My touch typing sucks like mad... maybe coz im too lazy to use all my fingers to type... usually just move my index and middle finger to the keys i wanna type. i know where the keys are naturally enough to do that without looking but i tend to miss alot and end up backspacing every other word.
im ugly... but you already knew that.
macs coffee is still the crappy-est coffee ive ever tasted. but the most effective.
im typing alot of crap, and there is a word for this... i'll probably title the post that once i remember whats the word. haha... something that means mental diahorhea. i'll look it up.

Aueralis v2.0. im so hyped up about doing this Flash site. haha. but i need to read up and try out a couple of things before i begin on the actual work still. meanwhile Andrew can animate a couple of things for me. shouldn;t be too mad. its just a spinning effect. more updates to come.

How to check ur resolution
1.rightclick anywhere on ur desktop
2.choose Properties
3.click on the Settings tab
4.look for the slider titled screen resolution
5. the resolution is that number thingie(800 by 600 pixels, etc)

thanks so much for voting:) it'll decide what resolution i'll use to design Aueralis v2.0

random tip: the higher the resolution the smaller ur icons and text on the screen will be. the smaller the icons and stuff the more space you will have on ur desktop. mine is set at 1280 by 1024. its a nice size i think. try it out, see if u like it.
screen resolution - represents the number of pixels(dots that make up the images on your screen) your screen is made of, the higher the resolution, the sharper ur images will be.

2005-12-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

im home:) hows everyone doing?

yes i missed u all :) 1st audio blog coming in 3 days time? if i can slip it it.

finalised my design for Aueralis 2.0. updates soon.

now... sleep

Virn: its not going to happen. not now, ive had time to think about it and yeah... Im giving it a chance. please do remind me its not a very bad idea.

2005-12-16T10:28:00.000+08:00

okay guys... its time for me to say a short goodbye:) will be back in time for Xmas and with the presents... i think :P still have a few things to settle now so i wont say much more. except... zim zam zoodle!

take care all:)

lost my cam at sentosa :(

cam:$500
photos: priceless....

really bummed about this

the busy lucy

2005-12-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

it would seem that blogging is going out of fashion:P haha... of course im wrong, but its the time of year when most of my friends are too busy to blog... ironically it is the most interesting time too.. then again... i am in the same boat. busy busy busy

-alrighty, short update once again.

-The Great Flash is on hold indefinitely, i have not the time.

-Chalet at Sentosa... SeSix ppl... get ready to party, anyone wanna plan or shall we have it free and easy.

-Christmas is coming up and i dont have a blog skin to suit the occasion. :(

-Leaving for New Zealand on the 16th. evening. hopefully i will not die on the maiden flight of the AnT.

-Blogging in point form should be the new in thing. its so much better than SMS language.

-I need to get a job. preferbly it will be IT related. willing to learn and spend my own time getting up to speed. or at a LAN shop:P either way. will start looking when i get back from NZ. if u have reccomendations pls feel free to drop me a line. or comment. or hit me on the head.

2005-12-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

http://www.flickr.com/photos/antaeuscai/

i dont have time to label them all:) ok guys... pls tag ur photo sets :) love u all.

"Aueralis: The Great Flash" has been put on hold

*whoosh. Chris is now else where*

2005-12-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. its been a while(since i could... hold my head up high)
since ive blogged seriously... well., been busy, figuring out Wordpress and Flash. its gonna be painful to leave this blog behind and move to the new address soon! but not until i get it working. for now... Prom... Dress up... Hair... good bye cap...

2005-12-02T10:51:00.000+08:00

short posts of random thoughts... im going out soon.

watching Nicole Tay at the SEA games was.... inspiring.
whether such bravery and intensity takes a toll on a person's character......

i wonder

2005-12-02T10:42:00.000+08:00

"Then there are the third kind of people the GEP will meet. (And are also somewhat rare.) The nice people, those that don't give a damn whether you are a GEP or not, and treat you normally."

The GEP question - n_a_r_e_v

are human beings truly like that? so immature that we cannot accept that there will be those who are better off and those who are worse off? but i my self fall into that trap. let me rephrase

why are there many(not all) people who let immaturity reign in their lives? or has n_a_r_e_v lost too much faith in people.... have I?

o 'ye of little faith

flashLoaded = 5%

2005-12-02T10:21:00.000+08:00

alrighty... been spending my time reading some vocab and trying to figure out how to make a blog in flash... the main problem being getting the text to be dynamic and accept HTML. not sure if its been done before so there.... meh.

there are people who care
there are people who don't
do i care?
i try

2005-11-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

bloody malicious spyware... damn SATs... erg. when will the "fun stuff" end

2005-11-27T17:05:00.000+08:00

alrighty... my com is up and running... haha... its pretty scant on the specs but it'll suffice... willl try WoW later. and if it works fine then i'll go get the real thing(which i already ordered anyway).. yeah!

this rox:)

2005-11-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

Chalet thingie

14th Dec 2005(Wed)
2 NTUC huts - courtesy of my cousin(Thx Miriam)
(NO bbq pits... i think it can be changed if u really want to though, sms me if u do want to organise a bbq session as well)
meet early?
party party party.
go back to hut
talk crap
slp
preferbly for more than 2 hours.

---

erm... in a rush right now. BUT i will post more... tmr evening:) ciaoz

2005-11-25T09:35:00.000+08:00

Fly by night video competition 2005
got this off Re-minisce
enjoy:)

2005-11-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

"i believe there is no such thing as happenstance.
our paths crossed with a purpose.
you never meet anyone by chance.
each person brings you a lesson, once learnt,
his/her purpose in your life is complete and we all move on.
some will stay with you forever,
for the things they bring are things you will always need"
-paperpickles

this is so true... alrighty, im going out in a short while, not much time to write but mull over that.

2005-11-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Memory - Cats
inspired by that girl next door playing the piano.

Memory

Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan
Memory

All alone in the moonlight
I can smile happy your days ( I can dream of the old days)
Life was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Every street lamp seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters and the street lamp gutters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn’t give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of smoky days
The still cold smell of morning
A street lamp dies ,another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me
It is so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me,You’ll understand what happiness is
Look, a new day has begun...

2005-11-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

quote from somewhere....
This is not the face of an ingenue; this is an old soul in a new body -- wary, wise to her own long past, on to the wiles of the world, and having miles to go before she sleeps.

of crystal balls and cockle shells

2005-11-21T19:09:00.000+08:00

what would i give to be able to scry the future
to peek at what life has in store for me
adventure? the mundane?
yet a part of me(that lazy chilled part)
says that what ever will be... will be
que sera sera

yet another part(the passionate hot part)
asks if i were to allow life to lull me into contentment
to live on a farm, doing my duties day in and day out
at the bidding of the lords, the movers, the shakers.

or would i BE the mover, would i BE the shaker?
maybe not. probably not what i want either.
i want... to live.

ive said this quite a few times... haha...

2005-11-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

there are freaking pop ups on my freaking blog... i'll fix this soon... sry dudes and dudettes. i didnt notice until recently

of fish and late night calls

2005-11-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

alrighty... sry dudes and dudettes of se6:) smtng came up. hope it was a blast

not gonna write much now... lack of inspiration and my eyes hurt... cheerio:) enjoy the post A's(for those who have finished)

of freedom and indulgence

2005-11-18T17:25:00.000+08:00

picture this... guy sitting at bus stop.
guy holding big boxy thing in opaque pastic bag,
of what can be seen through the plastic bag:
the boxy thing is heavy and black
boxy thing has wire dangling out of bag
said wire has a nice button-ny looking thing at its end.

terrorist?

guy stumbles up bus 74 for a long trip to KAP

naw... stupid boy lugging xbox...

now... where is that damn ninja.

2005-11-17T09:39:00.000+08:00

well its over... well... almost. so strange it is... a chapter closes and a new one begins, yet i do not feel as completed as the previous chapter. like... the author has been suffering from a writer's block but still just pens down the mish mash of trash anyway to get on with the book. life is like that isnt it? a candle with a continual flame that burns itself to extiction, never stopping, never slowing, it can burn brighter or dimmer, mellow or furious, but it burns and you can never turn back.

oh dear candle of time and life...
never ceasing to fill those around you with light
never slowing to care for the wax, flowing down the sides
never fearing to reach the end, to burn away...
into extinction

on another note, Project Flashing has commenced. will be going down to JE when i can to read up on certain books. all in preperation of the great Flash. Aueralis Readers... beware.

date of completion: will tell soon

2005-11-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

http://gprime.net/video.php/tornmime
this you gotta see... its so funny... u can watch it twice and 3 times... its just good... watch it

http://gprime.net/video.php/reachalecturemusical
and this... somebody do this in lecture...

2005-11-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

"There is no harm in beginning a friendship based on attraction - there's no hypocrisy anywhere if over time that attraction wanes or stabilises into friendship. That is often what happens when two people get to know each other really well - they realise they are best suited as friends. "
-re-minisce

Hiatus

2005-11-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

rah rah rah... only a few days to go to the Exams... wait thats not right... THE exams... yes... emphasis on the THE...anyway, i cannot wait for it to be over.. and once its over i shall attempt to put Flash on my Blog... wonder if i'll be the 1st... a flash based blog site... hmm..

oh well... every body! mug til the muggers come home.

i think im off my rocker. all the best ppl:D

the rat-tat-tattle

2005-11-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

the rat-tat-tattle of rain against the glass pane drags me away from my much wanted sleep
solace... peace... honor and pride.
i am still very tired... badly in need of my escape
my reverie
yet here i am, typing, blogging like the inane fool that i am.
i feel a need for truth, to drop all the facades and barriers that exist between my self and people.
especially friends... yet i cannot. not just yet. but soon
soon.

then...

we shall see.

2005-11-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

I think I got somethin in my teeth
Could you get it out for me
That's f***in teamwork

haha... Thanks to Aaron for letting me listen to Fuck her Gently by Tenacious D
its hilarious.... if u want a laugh go download the song. and other Tenacious D songs, then buy their Album, if you can find it. THEN tell me too:P

Whats your favorite posish?
That's cool with me
Its not my favorite
But I'll do it for you
Whats your favorite dish?
Im not gonna cook it
But ill order it from Zanzibar

2005-10-29T23:40:00.000+08:00

http://www.bravia-advert.com/

nice colorful advertisement... haha... 250,000 color balls bouncing down the streets of sanfran... this you gotta see.

2005-10-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

long day ahead... sleep or is it a reverie? wt is a reverie? rest for not just the weary body but the worn souls and hearts of the goodly peoples. guilt? no. regret? maybe. can there be one answer to any problem? lest it was a problem that came from a mind of another human being.

i long for adventure, the honor of a blade and wrath upon evil doers. yet i know that this gray scale world is not the place for such fantasies. as such, i shall retreat into the world of heroes and villians if only to recover for my next plunge into the madness that is life. fight on brave Drizzt!

on a seperate note... ive been dreaming about alot of people the last few nights... save one

everything you want. everything you need. but meaning nothing to you, i dont know why.

2005-10-28T08:08:00.000+08:00

in the morning
when the moon is at its rest

wt if yoda were black?

2005-10-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

http://media.mypartypost.com/ryan/videos/movie/yoda2.wmv

words are bitches...

2005-10-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

no really, they are... because of the way that people think and how differently we think words can cause such problems. stupid motherfuckers. words i mean.

well of course some people are stupid...or mother fuckers... or both... thankfully i havnt met any. well not mother fuckers anyway.

very annoyed with dealing with people in such a limited and respectless sense. there are of course 2 reasons and 2 solutions to this problem. isolate myself and live in my own digital world. or try to get out. oddly, as easy as the life of a hermit seems to me(and appeals) im not going to choose that.

Happy cow... i hope read this. its hard. my resolution is set, it will happen. but its really really hard.

Communique

2005-10-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

communication. big words.

what is communication? the ability to pass on ideas(memes) to other people... in a clear concise way.
words are a motherf***er, they can be great or even worse they can teach hate.

to be a "good" communicator is not only to command a wide range of vocab, it is not to be able to express yourself fluently or to speak as many languages as C3P0. it is the ability to get the other person to understand you. to transfer the message in the best way possible, ie the way that the person would best understand. Those who share a love for a language would probably have a command that would allow them to instantly form the idea in their minds when you talk in "big words". A movie buff would relate ideas to scenes in movies, and a gamer would talk about life struggles like a Warcraft 3 game(im not refering to you ben, really im not... didnt even cross my mind:) haha... i digress).

No one can be a perfect communicator because of the simple fact that there are billions of permutations in the way that people communicate. should we try? of course.

blogs are communication tools, and you can see how different people choose to digitise(voice) theirideas. from the simplistic... pouring out of random thoughts.... that come to mind... usuallu punctuated with.... dotz. the raw thoughts, often punctuated with f***ing swears that are nonetheless appropriate. eloquence and with a verbal dexterity that is always both a pleasure and pain to read at the same time... it really depends.

i hate to compare these 2, but look at the SPG and XiaXue. I don't often read their blogs, but their styles of writing are perfect examples. XiaXue caters to the Average internet reader, quick, short and illustrative posts that survives the short attention span of her readers. SPG on the other hand blogs for herself, her ideas are always written out in full passionate detail.

Re-minisce... dances with words, weaving an intricate story behind each post, sometimes it is hard to grasp the entire story, but his feelings are evident. just like tarantallegra and Le' Matou Planche, their writings are... peotry to me:)

i? i am better communicating on a personal level, or at least... i was. recently, life has had little to offer in the way of souls who need saving. that is good i guess... but it leaves me feeling... redundant... inadequet...

i am confused

ego amor to

edit: wanted to comment this on reminisce's, but the system called me a spammer. *sigh
of course your words are choosen well:) but communication isnt eloquence is it? people think in different ways and there for it is difficult to translate your thoughts into a medium that everyone can comprehend, lest they think in a way similar to yours. on another note, is this the reason for the FURBAR, BUNDY tag given to a certain blogger.

alrighty. time to sleep i think.

2005-10-23T01:34:00.000+08:00

tarantallegra is a beautiful writer... well... her words capture the feelings and maybe its because im deprived of it so long that ive forgotten the ability to put passion into words. the simple colors and raw feelings should be what a blog is.

as neutral and conforming as can be... that be me.

2005-10-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

suddenly had this compulsion to write about smtng... anytng.

running without the ipod sucked... i ended up thinking about lots of stuff, stuff i shouldnt start thinking about or it'll start going round and round and round and round....... yeah well you get the idea.

ok, 1st off, i was skimming through the 2A1 timecapsule site checking out profiles and stuff. wt did i find? a certain interesting interests: segment of a certain desperate despo haha... it was quite amusing, but it brought back nostalgia... the first few months of ACJC and the insane rush to have fun.... now that is replaced by the insane and inane rush for the A's. wow... growing up kinda sucks dosent it? i mean, i would love to grow up and be independant and all but when you realise how much fun you've had for the past few years. it just sucks to think that you are leaving these behind. all these memories, thankfully entombed in still frames that will rest on my wall(and heart) for years to come.

The photos of Sesix put up by Virn were beautiful, capturing us in all our quirkiness. From my no.17 shirt(which i never knew i wore to school) to the beautiful picture of Fio and ZL... meh. missing the class yet again.

ok a few shout outs.

Skitty is on a full recovery i think... (sry dude, im still grinning when i think of the name skitty, its a letter away from kitty and s*itty). take care of yourself dude.

where are you Ying? hvnt really been able to chat with you for some time.. limpz too. hope you enjoy church and it will hold meaning for you. church changed my way of looking at things too... its just that now, is not the time i believe. i dont know really...

speaking of which, ive been carrying my bible everywhere i go now adays... not sure why.. just reading random verses.

2005-10-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

the sharpest image
this is what i call passion. a must read. its inspiring if you understand how possible it is for you to do something that you know you would love. something that excites and invigorates you.

http://www.gigapxl.org/

2005-10-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

im beginning to get annoyed with loud blog music... coz im using headphones... meh. haha... hi all, just to let you know im still hanging in there... &*((*!%&!(*#! A levels

2005-10-20T17:46:00.000+08:00

Which SciFi/Fantasy character are u?
yeah well... at least i still have hair

2005-10-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

Song of the moment - Easier to Run - Meteora, Linkin Park

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

explicit(M-18, read only if u want to:P)

2005-10-19T09:05:00.000+08:00

is sex that big a deal anymore?
a 17 yr old writes freely about having sex with her boyfriend out in the cold of greece... they arnt ashamed or hiding this... maybe from their parents yeah... but she does not feel remorse or anything that someone from our culture would. haha... not that im promoting that people in singapore should have sex on the street or anything, its that... the casualness is... refreshing. where we talk crap with "the guys" about porn or wt have you, they(the white people) generally accept the acts as normal...

there is no right or wrong really... haha... just a difference in culture. yet, with this stiffness(pun not intended) of Singaporean society and culture, stemming from our asian roots, we also lose out in thinking, because once we let this culture element take root in our thinking, the other "old-fashioned" ideas will follow. Gays, lesbians... discrimination is a horrible thing. in the end, we will be so afraid to think and be free that we die as a society. our minds lack wit and freedom of fear. and sadly... i dont think its going to change soon.

i wish there were a way to change this, without moral decadence... but its a give and take apperantly... can we fucking start to bother?

2005-10-19T08:43:00.000+08:00

the flutter of wings on the other side of the glass pane wakes me
a bird(or is it?) gives way to a flower, bright and inviting,
yet obviously dying
it is the only flower in this patch of green, standing tall in its own lonesome corner
yet it is dying

wiping the sleepy white fuzz from my vision i look closer
the rot and inevitible decay that takes all is climbing the petals
can you hear it scream? no...
yet... it is dying.

will i share that fate? to shine brightly and let darkness consume me slowly?
i think not. my dreams will one day shine...
at least.... i pray they will

fly with me fly.....
take me far away from this mucky muck

2005-10-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

2km in 10 minutes... closer and closer to my mark.. haha... albiet still far though... maybe a couple more runs and i'll make 2.4

alrighty... complains? i guess sometimes people feel the urge to whine, but even if u like to whine, u may not like to hear whining... ultimately if u dun want to piss ppl off(well at least not to annoy people) dont whine too much. yes, some are blessed with great patience... but even they have limits...

strangly this is not just applicable to a certain stressed J1... relax dudes and especially dudettes... take care

2005-10-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.... this brings a whole new meaning to voyuerism... a lens that lets u see through stuff like fabrics... of... shirts... and... well... wt do u expect to see....

http://www.kaya-optics.com/products/experiments.shtml

sinecure

2005-10-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

hey dudes of 2SE6.

got the rates of the Costa Sands Chalets...

Kampung Hut(aircon-ed)
NTUC member rate: $40 online rate: $50

Superior Chalet
NTUC member rate: $90 online rate: $125

anyone a member? please comment here and spread the word too:)

and 12-13 Dec is available... actually there is alot available, i'll book it whenever u r ready, and pay too... will decide later whether its a treat for u guys or not:P happy muggin

Baccalaureate Service

2005-10-15T08:47:00.000+08:00

Fio's Pics

Virn's Pics

2005-10-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

geek gets popular on MySpace read and know how to get a million friends in less than a day

2005-10-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

random pic

2005-10-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

come grow old along with me, the best is yet to be.

so it has come to pass... It feels... surreal to be an alumni. barely 12 hours after i walk out of the Auditorium i'm already feeling the tugging at my heart. the people have taught me so much and brought me so far, dragged me out of crap and jumped straight back in with me, danced, sang cheered and hollered(all the while kicking RJ butt, :) nothing against u angie)...

i am an ACSian... Red Blue and Gold Blooded... and proud of it

2005-10-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

nostalgia, reminisce, spirit...

eating out with the guys at swensons was fun, in a guyish way. the lameness, the freeflow of icecream(all 16 scoops for like, a buck a person you could get ur own earthquake) its too bad that the girls didnt come... it would have been... more complete.

talking to Joel after years of not doing so had a strange effect, the memories that were wrought led to thoughts and again nostalgia.

didnt take many pictures, though i badly wanted to. just felt.... it was worthless. a gewgaw. not that i do not like the people around me... but just that... well, i have become a gewgaw, another soul in the sea of lost souls, seeking not to be noticed, and yet at the same time longing to be more than a mere shadow... longing to be... free.

talking to Virn last night was also thought provoking. Her description of a certain guy was uncanny(except for the prolific part), was that not who i was? not am... but was...

damn this feeling...

on another note, i would call the project a success! Thanks to Ying :)

i got another confession to make... im your fool

2005-10-12T10:21:00.000+08:00

im about to reach 1000 hits. haha... thx for reading guys:P either there are a few people coming back lots(which is good) or there are many people coming often(which is good too). :) will try to update soon, but studying saps my strength. all the best guys!

2005-10-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

i have so much to write.. yet not a minute to spend writing:P ah well... will blog as and when i can. but food for thought now.

im almost through a quarter of my life... the next 20 yrs will be the most exciting... the most enticing and yet terrifying... will i be as carefree as some, as wise as re-misisce... yet.. still stuck in the wrong age like aaron. i dont know... but i do have a response to life.

bring it on

miscast play

2005-10-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

it is so uncanny.... whenever i feel uncertainty and doubt, God chooses to answer my fears with a friend. i am almost entirely convinced that that is my calling... to serve others as a friend, to guide and support... yet that in itself is another problem for myself(i shall not expound). time to sleep...

2 people i hold close to my heart are going through trying times, strangly this single message says all that my heart wants to say to both...

you are in my prayers friend... i wish for nothing more than for you to put this episode behind you, no matter the outcome. know that within an empheral world there are timeless possesions... friendships. stay strong...

2005-10-02T20:46:00.000+08:00

Apple blames fat people for broken Ipod nano's
http://macenstein.com/default/?p=23

no offence to larger people. check out the comments though... its so funny

somedude: lose some wait
somedude: *loose

...And a round thing in your face you get sprung...

2005-10-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

rar! cool day, had the airforce seminar thingie and ran into a few AC ppl, Gd ol' Leon was just a couple of seats away from me but i cldnt see him for the light absorbing mass between us.(thought the temperature went up a couple of notches at some point of the presentation...)

on a more serious note, i was inspired... this is something to work for man! to fly and defend with honor, to help and serve. (sounds pretty patriotic eh?)

just came from a run, gonna shower now.

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ipod
Save tonight - Eagle Eyed Cherry
I like Big Butts - Sir Mix Alot
Give me Novacaine - Greenday

podcasts
diggnation - Kevin Rose & Alex Albrecht(warning: explitives from hammered nerds)
these guys talk about the latest tech "gossip" and the best beers they can find. as you probably can guess... they are drunk for the 1st half and gone by the second. i dont know what weed these guys smoke, but it must be good stuff

do you believe in destiny?

2005-10-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

hmm.... am supposed to be aslp now actually... but just a short question.... no its so stupid im not even sure how to write it. its just that im delusioned by the granduer of the romantisied medieval age, honor, strength, glory... where can i find that?

empheral memories

2005-09-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

alrighty, gonna start another blog soon just to store my designs and photos maybe... kinda like an archive. its gonna feature a new bloggin template again from scratch, but im gonna wait for inspiration before i start. :) any suggestions for names?

Nobody's Listening - Meteora, Linkin Park

2005-09-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like (rewind that)
We're just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to forgotten
But still unforgiven

But in the meantime there are those who wanna
Talk this and that/ so I suppose
It gets to a point feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt

[Chorus: Chester]
Try to give you warning
But everyone ingnores me
(Told you everything loud and clear)
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
(Told you everything loud and clear)
But nobody's listening

[Verse 2: Mike Shinoda]
I got a heart full of pain
head full of stress
Handful of anger
held in my chest
And everythings left is a waste of time
I hate my rhymes(But hate everyone else's more)

I'm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it's better
I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress
Gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something
I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood, sweat, and tears
The uphill struggle over the years
The fear and trash talking
And the people it was to
And the people that started it
Just like you

[Chorus]
I got aHeart full of pain
head full of stress
Handful of anger
held in my chest
Uphill stuggle
blood, sweat, and tears

Nothing to gain
everything to fear(scratches)
Coming at you at every style

2005-09-30T18:16:00.000+08:00

alrighty... havent had much time to ponder the meaning of life. which is good, means im actually doing something less empheral(or is it?). thinking of adding another section on to this skin. sry for the lack of posting recently, been busy with stuff and havent had anything to blog anyway

oh as for the new section thingie, i'll just append it to my posts which should be fairly frequent.

dont feel down, dont feel lonely... if anything, there is always someone next to you who cares.

meh. new word... describes Asperation(or desperation). Air force Seminar tomorrow, i do hope i make the cut somehow... its not going to be easy yes, but God i would love the freedom of flying.

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ipod
- Evanessence
- Nickleback
- Alter Bridge

podcast
Larry "Major Nelson" Hryb of Xbox Live on Xbox 360 and related stuff

2005-09-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

~~find me~~

2005-09-26T07:56:00.000+08:00

i am beginning to see... yes... now i understand...

i want to be free... to live like i always wanted. yet i want u by my side, its just that i want u to soar with me too... not be dragged by me, but to soar with ur own wings.

does that justify anything? no. come on... lets do this

excrept from Civil War - Guns 'N Roses

Look at your young men fighting
Look at your women crying
Look at your young men dying
The way they've always done before

Look at the hate we're breeding
Look at the fear we're feeding
Look at the lives we're leading
The way we've always done before

2005-09-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

fuck this shit

edit: alright, to add on more now that blogger lets me in.

i am saddened by the way my class is breaking apart so close to the end of our time together, its such a pity really. judgemental. irritation. intolerance. had i become to blind? is it too late? i pray not.

help

why must we fight
why did this end
i'll do what i can
to call you friend.

there is much i want
there is much i need
but in living our lives
must we always bleed?

holding your hand
lifting you high
all i ever want now
is for you to hear this cry

why must we fight
why did this end
i'll do what i can
just to call you friend.

-AnT-SeSix:OUR class

be free

2005-09-23T11:03:00.000+08:00

ok, here i am at computing and supposed to be studying... supposed to be.

i get this feeling that i should be better, should meet the expectations of myself, not others but myself, and i do know that i have been given the capacity to.. the potential(non-kinetic, sry... personal joke). and yet i have not utilised it to ANY effect. i love the things i study, phy, math, computing, they are all my strongest, yet why do i not perform?

my friends... again, another aspect in which im losing touch with, with so many(not really) things going on, how can i return to the way i was before? i want to try to be there, but i just have not the energy. im so sorry...

there, slight rant... emo stuff stresses me out more than academic, must try to be better, to soar, to run the race.

peace

2005-09-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

new blog skin coming... went over to deviant art to surf a lil and decided to do something a lil brighter this time round. no time to properly photoshop my original idea so bringing in a completely new idea... gimme a few days, time is pretty tight and im tired.

on another note, had 2 signs today.. 1st what Fab Soong today and 2nd while i was clapping for the beautiful people of ACJC:) there is a place in my heart for AC, this red blue and gold blooded feeling. if giving the chance i would dedicate much more to AC... haha... if only. but then again... it was taken out of my hand by my own choice so sad aye?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN!

2005-09-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

AnT-Virn: is everything ok? if you do need someone to talk to im right here k? dun let the stress and stuff spiral out of control, if anything, remember that we are concerned....

2005-09-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

impossible is just a big word thrown about by small men,
who find it easier to live in a world they have been given
than to explore the power they have to change it.
impossible is not a fact. it is an opinion.
impossible is not a declaration. it is a dare.
impossible is potential. impossible is temporary.
impossible is...... nothing.
-adidas

2005-09-15T20:16:00.000+08:00

selfpityking
"studying pays off later, procrastination pays off now.
procrastination is just like masturbation,
you enjoy it until you realise you are screwing yourself"

2005-09-15T13:26:00.000+08:00

try this... type failure into google and see whats the 1st hit that shows up:P its hilarious

afflatus: gentleman-talism

2005-09-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

well there aint no such word but yeah... what makes a gentleman? is the gentleman desired in this time and age?

was reading a friend's blog and she mentioned this,
1.looks count
2."mannerism" counts even more

what makes u a gentleman? ultimately the way you behave. being nice is 1 thing, being a gentleman involves doing the right thing at the right time and of course you must want to do it naturally just for the sake of the other person. paying of dinner, the movie, holding the door or just simply waiting patiently for the girl is a.... tangible manisfestation of being gentlemanly. speaking in a well manner-ed tone, thinking of how the other person would feel and acting accordingly is the less.... visible side of being a gentleman.

so now that a brief profile has been made of a gentleman... why do so many people fail at this? haha... its the age that we live in. coarse words and slacker-ism rule the in-crowd. there is no need to care how you behave just because you are too cool for it to matter. in fact, where or rather... how often do you see a person our age acting gentlemanly, especially around his classmates, or generally people we have gotten comfortable with.

its not us guys fault really... it has just become so natural that we hardly care, i mean... if other's don't do it, why bother going out of the way to act "gentlemanly". sad... but true. Immaturity is also another factor i believe, but that is subjective.. haha... immaturity affects more of how we behave, which in turn links with gentleman-talism... yeah....

how to be a gentleman? i cannot tell you.. haha... but i do believe the key is caring what other's think of your beheaviour, that would...motivate you to "behave". it would do the whole world a favor... this applies for the majority of friends i know:P unfortunatly... haha... not that ive got things against you guys, but yeah... it would be nice to have less people throwing that "pffft... guys" look ya'know?

although i dont think its neccessary to have dashing good looks or anything, personal hygiene and dressing do count, basically presenting urself...:) of course the main thing is having that sweet smile on ur face... but this is besides the point...

Brother bear... - Phil Collins

2005-09-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

Everywhere I turn, I hurt someone
But there's nothing I can say to change
the things I've done
Of all the things I hid from you
I cannot hide the shame

And I pray someone, something will come
to take away the pain
There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
I can't face another day

Tell me where, did I go wrong
Everyone I loved, they're all gone
I'd do everything so differently
but I can't turn back the time
There's no shelter from the storm inside of me

There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
I can't face another day

I can't believe the words I hear
It's like an answer to a prayer
When I look around I see
This place, this time, this friend of mine

I know its hard but you found somehow
To look into your heart and to forgive me now
You've given me the strength to see
just where my journey ends
You've given me the strength to carry on

I see the path from this dark place
I see my future
Your forgiveness has set me free
On and I can see another way
I can face another day!
I see the path, I can see the path
I see the future
I see the path from this dark place
I see the future I see the path,
I can see the path I see the future....

2005-09-13T18:21:00.000+08:00

looks like somebody had a vendetta with tag boards... Fooble and cbox tagboards down for some reason... bah.. so much to do so little time... use the comment feature in place of taggin if u want.

2005-09-13T15:48:00.000+08:00

okie... new idea for my next blog skin... didnt turn out so well after i scanned it... hmm.. lets see how good i am with photoshop then:D cheerio

ig-zis-ting(existing)

2005-09-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

hmm... either these guys are speaking german or i cannot understange germans speaking english... bugger.

2005-09-11T10:30:00.000+08:00

you may be wondering why i never did continue the marriage thing, well... i did some writing offline and thought about it. Guess i decided that it wouldn't be so appropriate to post it up, as logical as the arguments may sound, "slaughtering the sacred cow" will have its consequences. so in order to protect a certain 13 yr old who is turning 14 soon, i shall forget i ever started that topic:P ok its also because i think the arguments there are pretty strong and i don't want to be convince myself that things have decayed/evolved to such an extent. Sorry dudes and dudettes...

on another note, i have learnt 3 valuable lessons today,
1.bring a picture along for a haircut, it makes it alot easier
2.i should not cut my sides farther than 2cm above my ear no matter what Mdm Tham will say
3.put on glasses when check back through mirrors... or i'll end up lookin like an ahbeng with too long hair at the back and too short hair everywhere else(on my head that is)

now... about that anime i was suppose to be downloading...................

2005-09-09T10:49:00.000+08:00

i know who you are...

technologic...

2005-09-09T01:31:00.001+08:00

2005-09-08T09:19:00.000+08:00

quick post before i head over to Adel's.... i have 2 mini cornettos on my table... i shall now use said cornettos to prove that eating cold food in the morning is completely safe and should be practiced regularly... or maybe im just hungry.... :) ciaoz

2005-09-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

so... on with the topic of marriage.(damn... i had alot of typos in the last post must have been the aftereffects of running in this weather)

what is Marriage? is it really relevant and important in this age?
in 1 camp, people view marriages as contracts binding each other and there is with reason you cant find any thing that should hold these 2 people together for their entire life times, it is in fact a.... trammel to our personal freedom, an impedence... thus people should not engage in such rigid social laws, but embrace freedom of choice and not be bound by pieces of paper.

on the other hand, the traditional people think of marriage as being sacred and not to be broken. it is.. just so... failure to keep this most sacred of all rules means that society as we know it shall end (like it hasnt already). There are many arguments that support both camps, if you want to know them, go read The Straits Times.

marraige to me is an act of selflessness... no, there is no bind to be found with reason, that exchanging vows alone being enough to bind 2 people irrevocably is pure wishwash, derision. it is the person's honor and maturity that form the very fibres of the bind that marriage depends on. everyone has a choice, whether you choose to endorse a dogged adherence to traditions or a swinging life style is entire up to you.

next Cohabitation and other...lifestyles

2005-09-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

alrighty... juz finished the 1/100 model.. and a photog session with it:P AnT's mini studio.. with my trusty table lamp and digi cam.

Marriage, cohabitation, polygamy....

interesting concepts... or rather... different ways of life. What is marriage? or what is love for that matter? can we truly say anything is right or wrong?

i don't claim to have the answer for everything...

oh i forgot.. im supposed to run... be right back.

ok back... bah.. again waiting.. for the heater. meanwhile... where was i? oh right... human relations...

marriage
a contract that 2 people sign... nothing more, just a piece of paper? a promise... to be broken. My personal peeve... 1st, are promises made to be broken? was glass made to be shattered?were live made to be lost were dreams made to evaporate? i think not. A marriage is promise yes. but just as truth must accompany trust, loyalty must accompany promises, lest you be the work of the foulest demon existing, especially with promises of that enormity.

overcome by exhaustion.. will continue tomorrow... please make ur views know if you wish. but know that this is not my view on marriage, it is not a contract.. but rather... a show of selflessness... will explain tmr...